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Sunday, August 26, 2012

August 26 - Sunday

I obviously have not posted every day. The work week went to hell in a hand basket and it got away from me. Not a good first week of keeping my nose to the grind stone. This weekend has been another "avoid" the task situation. I haven't seen my husband much in the last month and he happened to have Saturday night and Sunday off. Last night we hung out with some new friends here at home until 3am, which gave us a late start to the day. I have a flat tire so a good portion of the remainder of the day will go to getting that taken care of. Do I have time to do SOMETHING? Of course I do. My plan of attack will be to get my email account cleaned up and connected back to my iphone and hopefully schedule a meeting with the committee in mid September. I also need to register! That is quite a bit to accomplish and I will feel like I did something. Next I need to plan WHAT I am going to do this week in the hotel. I seriously need to PLAN or I won't do. The task is so daunting that I keep avoiding it out of fear that I won't be able to figure out my research questions.

There are so many projects around the house that I want to do, art to create, soooo much and I won't allow myself to do any of it. I have a pile of jewelry to fix and I am not going to even do that until I at least get my list today done.

The coursework for my PhD was torture and rough, nothing compares to this though.....nothing.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

August 21, 2012

My goal today was to get into my umich email account (it was hacked and I had to change my password) I can't remember the password or where I wrote it down.......it is too late to call ITS, so it is on my list to do tomorrow....along with registering for prelims.

So, instead I am organizing the papers that I brought with me. More progress tomorrow since I will have my list of things to do during the day and will make the phone calls that I need to!

August 20, 2012 - Met with Committee Chair

I met with my committee chair yesterday morning. We hashed out the plan to get my prelims written and defended this term. I also found out that after I become a PhD (c) the school pays my tuition. (that would have been nice to know!)

It is up to me. I must work this plan and hunker down and get er done.

Scheduled for tonight. Cleaning out my email account for school. I also need to get rid of some junk mail that comes into my account. It doesn't sound like much, but that alone is going to take me over an hour and I need that account to be FOR school so things don't get lost in the shuffle.

Short term and long term goals. Each day is a short term goal. Defending prelims is a medium range goal. Graduating is the long term goal at this point.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Breathe.

Deep Breath. I now have less than 9 months to graduation. I must write my prelims AND my dissertation, defend both by next April. This can be done......even while working full time. I need a serious schedule and need to stick to it. My home that I desperatly want to decorate and clean is going to need to wait until I am finished. My art must wait until I am finished. My LIFE must wait until I am finished. It is PAST time to hunker down and get this finished. I will meet with my committee chair tomorrow morning. This is where the plan will begin.

My chest is tight, my stomach has butterflies........I am afraid that I can't do it. The truth is. I. Can. Do. It.

Daily updates forthcoming. This is where I will keep myself accountable. How fun will it be to have a daily journal of how I finished my PhD?

Here is to Graduation Day 2013!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Going home tomorrow!

It has been a long week, I am looking forward to going home tomorrow. My lovely daughter will be there waiting for me! We are spending the weekend together and going down to the Ann Arbor Art Fair. When I lived IN Ann Arbor, I dreaded the week of the art fair! Now, I will head to the mall and take the shuttle, no wasting time trying to find parking or driving around that insane town!

I am in West Branch and the office has mold in it and the hotel has the most uncomfortable beds. I end up so tired and get sciatica pain by the end of the week. I hope the drive home won't be too bad. I will have to stop and stretch.

Well....now that was a negative post....where is your lifting positive thought for the day?

How about this......................................

You don't have a soul, you ARE a soul  C.S. Lewis

Take care of the vessel that your soul resides in and feed your soul!

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Triple Creek

My hometown of Three Rivers, which we loving call Triple Creek is where I am headed today. 25 years ago my last child was born so I am heading over to have lunch with him. 5 days after he was born, my brother Gary married his wife Dianne and today they are celebrating their 25th anniversary.  It will be a fun day seeing family. I do need time at home, however it is more important that I honor these milestones in the lives of people that I love.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Back to the Grind

Just finished a little vacation. Getting Hubby through his second hand surgery in 3 weeks. I didn't get as much done as I would have liked to, however I only will be working 2 days before the weekend arrives again! If I didn't need to sleep, I think I could accomplish so much!

Your inspirational thought for today.

Breathe. Just breathe. Be present with every single moment, because every single moment of your life counts, no matter how difficult it may seem, it is teaching you something.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Happiness




I love this photo and in particular what the words say. There is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way! >3 Happiness is the way............and that isn't to say that we need to be "Happy" with insincerity. It really is about living with sincerity, gratefulness, JOY in life.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Long Awaited Update


I should update you! It became official on May 1, 2012, we are home owners! We have had a "welcome to being a homeowner" experience very quickly after closing. Things that really were supposed to have to have been taken care of prior to closing, were not taken care of as they should have been, due to a few reasons. The video shows you a peek into what we uncovered. We put a bandaid on it and are in a holding pattern. Not sure what to do next. We also have major concerns about the electrical work that was completed in our home. So we do have a few worries about ants eating our house from under us, or our house burning down.....not such a great feeling.  The sellers also dug out 15 large/tall evergreens that ran along our property line, leaving 15 large holes and totally ruined the grading and the view to the entrance of our home! For all of my glass friends, the area in the garage that was invaded by ants is supposed to be my glass studio, that is certainly on hold until we can afford the finsihing of this disaster! However, I have hope that  we will find solutions and all will be well.



Also since I last wrote to you my father and I celebrated our 3rd year since one of my kidneys was given to him so that he could be with me a little while longer. 3 years later and he is doing very well as far as his kidney is concerned, his heart is another issue. We recently discovered that he needs a new valve and are waiting to find out if that can be accomplished. He is a vibrant man, not your typical 73 year old for certain!

Lastly, we celebrated our 2nd year anniversary yesterday. Our neighbors took us on a boat ride up the river to the chain of lakes. The view was incredible!








Tuesday, April 24, 2012

We have Moved.

Not only have we moved, but we have moved into our dream home. One little catch, this is NOT ours, YET. We are renting it from the sellers until we close, which could be this week, possibly next week. And there remains a slight possibility that we won't be able to close. After speaking to the CEO of the company, he took the reins is has gotten us to the point that we should be at right now. For buying ONE home, having to give multiple copies of varies items has been one of the most frustrating parts. It is hard enough to go through it one time, but try doing it 4-5 times (just for one house!) the frustration level has been very high, however the CEO has taken that away. Nothing can take the anxiety away about the "slight" possibility that this may not go our way (although we have had a preapproval since January!!).

Enough whining. We are unpacked and have cleaned almost everything! We really need to clean the outside windows, powerwash the house and deck and restain the deck. We have planted flowers and really settled in. The view is spectacular, from 90% of the rooms. We live on a major river and it is stunning to watch the wildlife and just see the water running down stream.

I won't be setting up my glass studio yet though. I have a wonderful space in the garage that will be my glass studio, however the deal is that I must defend my preliminary exams before I can even get it set up.  The house is going to be enough for me to deal with and still get through my PhD, I don't need that distraction. I already have a list of things to do around here, small little projects, but even those will need to wait. (Or hubby could step up to the plate! LOL!)

I think that is one thing that I notice more in a 3 story home than I did in a 2 bedroom apartment. He is a little lazy. I feel like I am following him around picking up after him. When I do something, say like water the flowers outside. I unwind the hose from the spool, go water everything and then wind the hose back up on the spool. He would not wind it back on the spool, just leave it on the ground saying "I am going to water them tomorrow". Now there is a thought. I am a finisher, I start something and I finish it. "light goes off in head" thus, I started my PhD, thus, I will fnish it!

Alrighty then. That is enough blabbing on for one day. I always think no one comes to see this blog, so I am so inclined to make it my personal journal, however the top does appear to show that people have look at it! One day soon, I will make this more than my personal journal, that would be far more exciting for anyone reading this! Maybe some home tips.........writing tips (although I am usally writing this early in the morning and I am certain that it is not examplary of incredible writing!

Waiting to see where life takes me from here..............enjoy your day if you came here to read!

Monday, April 2, 2012

Wishing and waiting

This home buying experience has taken so much out of me. I want to dream about my new house, plan the move, plan how I will decorate and organize it. I start to think of everything that I would do and I keep running into a wall, because there is nothing that tells me that it is really going to happen. If it doesn't happen then I really don't know what I will do. If it is going to happen, I probably will hear this week that closing will be next week, then it will be such a race to move, almost like all the fun of it will be drained. I don't know. Sometimes I think that my feelings are lacking a spiritual connection. That doesn't sound right....my feelings and spiritualaity......My spirit seems to be effected in a strong way and I suppose that clues me into the fact that I am not as grounded spiritualy as I should be. I just want to know and move forward, it is so stale and stagnate in this place of not knowing.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Back on Track......I think!

I met with my committee chair and we came up with a plan for my dissertation, so I think we have that back on track.

House loan is back to the underwriters with a chance of getting it to close by the proper date for the sellers. Back on track (for now) (Did  I mention that we need to be out of our apartment by April 1st, but they have been kind enough to extend it 2 weeks)

Still shopping for car insurance that is double of what it was previous to the accident.

A positive note, I did find a great community on Etsy and the shop is getting more views.....just need to get some more sales too!

Everything happens for a reason. Actually, I am not a fan of that statement. Everything happens and if you are centered enough you are able to find a balance with it and move on to the next plan and have some faith that it will all work out in the end in the way that the universe wishes it to.

Be Ok with ou you are.......even if you want to change..........smile.......live life!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Yep, Insane.

Well, if you have been reading my blog, you know that we have been trying to buy our dream home since JANUARY! The loan officer made a HUGE mistake, we are now on our third loan and today, it basically all fell apart again because the seller doesn't want to extend the closing date.

If that isn't enough, I am stuck in a hotel in Bay City, SICK. I actually feel a bit better tonight, just worn out....drained.....disappointed......

THEN to add fuel to the fire, I found out today that the last 18 months of work on the first 3 chapters of my dissertation that I am supposed to defend in 4 weeks just got tossed in the trash can. Yep....all of that research and writing, gone. Because the sample population that I planned to use and have been working with the group to use them, I was told today that I can't. No one else uses my measures, it was designed around this population. So it is all gone.

Oh....and don't DARE have a car accident your car insurance will go up 100%! Yep, found that out today as well.

Seriously, something needs to go right here. Just one little breath of hope is all my soul needs.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Insane? Quite Possibly!

This term, not only am I jumping through a thousand hoops to buy a house AND move into it, I am also working full time (OUT OF TOWN) I am also doing one of the most important evenst of my education.......orally defending my preliminary exams. That means writing the first 3 chapters of my dissertation, and defending it before my committee. Once I do this I will be Catie Doman RN, PhD (c)
which is a PhD candidate. That is a lot to put in one term, but think of the little break that I will get after I defend! I will get to play and decorate the house for a month before I begin my data collection. This all sets me up to graduate April 2013, which is actually a year later than originally anticpated, but at least I will graduate! I CAN DO THIS! :)

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Accomplished!

I have gotten so much accomplished this weekend. More to do, but hey, I am on a roll! The apartment is in complete disarray! half packed, lots of bags to go out, some garbage, some donations, some things that belong to other people. There seems to be something satisfying in moving, purging those things that need to go, organizing the things that stay. It is a good feeling.

Since I am defending my preliminary exams in late April, which is right after we move. I am forbidden to do much for the move. I MUST defend and that means all of my spare time is dedicated to writing the first 3 chapters of my dissertation. No easy task. I did take yesterday to purge and organize the areas that hubby has no clue about, so now he can pack what is left. After I defend, I will allow myself a month to "nest", then back to writing.

Exciting and scary.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Hopefully....our new home!

We just took the plunge and put an offer on this River Front Home. It is a dream home and with the market down, a steal of a price. Still, after renting for 5 years while working on my PhD, it is a scary thing to go back into home ownership. The offer is in, we are just waiting to hear! Here are a few pics!
















Saturday, January 28, 2012

I really AM married :)

I married the love of my life about 18 months ago, We used a beautiful peridot ring that he had bought me for our "engagement". Well......last night he gave me a "real" wedding ring!!




I am Loved <3

Monday, January 9, 2012

New Year, New Goals

I have more goals than probably anyone else on earth! The most important is that I defend my preliminary exams for my PhD THIS term. It will take incredible effort to do that. I also need to be HEALTHY. I need to get to the gym and monitor my food intake. There are many other things flying around in my head, but those 2 things are of the ut most important. My energy level is incredibly low and I do know that going to the gym would increase that. We are working on buying a house and that is taking a toll as well. The amount of work that will take is unreal. I will need to take a vacation to move in and get everything clean, etc. I just need to get motivated and make a plan and stick to it. I MUST do this. My creative side is dying to get out, but it really has to take a back seat to the important things at the moment.

So how does one get motivated to do what one MUST do????? Everything that I have tried thus far has failed. I meet with my committee chair today. I am hoping that I can get him to motivate me. I feel very unorganized. Suggestions are welcome.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Lucky Girl!

I recieved a RT on my twitter from Mike Martin today! That was very cool! He is a senior member of Team #132 at the University of Michigan, currently hanging out down in New Orleans preparing for the Sugar Bowl game on Tuesday night. Mike is one of the most forward thinking, mature young man I have watched over the last few years. He has a movement called Category 1, about being better than those who came before us and those who come after us. I can't wait to see where his life takes him, there is no doubt that he will play in the NFL, but he will do more than that, he is much more than a football player, he is a motivator, an entrapranuer, a giver, a person who wishes to do something with his life that will matter to many.